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Name: To each there own , name
Country: United States
State: New York
Metro: The Bronx
Birthday: 4/14/1990
Gender: Female
Interests: Being there for you when you need me, Reading , Breathing, Surviving, Becoming an Archaeologist , Holding together My life and my Family ... ( not letting people hurt me , be they family , friend , nor foe) ... Making, not just finding, a place for me , Feeling appreciated , Making New Friends , and keeping people alive....
Expertise: I am a good (big) Little sister , and I care for My Sister by blood and genetics Lauren who is broken in body and slowed in mind , but alive more then most of you. Also My Sister by blood, sweat, and tears Angael , who keeps me alive ( see our xanga Fallen_Angaels_in_the_dark)I can make God's Eyes and loop braids with little thought and incredible speed. I can be extremely stupid and try hard to make someone laugh . Also as a clown , I can make balloon animals, use a balance board , mime , balance roses, feathers, brooms and rods , and with a bit of repratice spin plates and chinese yo-yos . I can sing from Soprano to Tenor , I can write poetry , I know more about mythology then most of you people put together . I can daydream and be so random its creepy. I am quite sexual , but I abstain from total perversion. My art is good , my poetry is deep , and my emotional well is vast.
Occupation: Student
Message: message me
AIM:  Penguleine
MSN: Dark_angel_of_Aeriel@hotmail.com
Yahoo:  Penguleine@yahoo.com
Member Since:
3/27/2005
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| I'm worried about me and Chris. Its hard to be with someone who is transsexual and try to make sure that they always feel supported. I love her and I want to be there for her. People keep trying to bring me down and give me isht about it but Chris is my girl and I will do what I have to to protect her. I'm tired of what people have to say and I'm really tired of being so unsure all the time. As you get older ,things get less and less certain. It's like walking on jelly or on thin ice. I guess I deserve the stress but everything is kind of making me paranoid. Between whats Chris thinks and says and what other people think and say, I'm always afraid that someone is going to come and bite me in the ass. I'm trying to figure out my life but I feel like I'm mamboing or something, going foward , going backward, spinning around. What to do , what to do? | | |
| Let me tell you children. Not all things are easy when it comes to love and compromise. Sometimes she says and feels things that I will never understand, although sometimes I truly wish I did. As I look back on my childhood , I realise how many things have impacted the person I am now , and how fucked up everything was. I get very jealous because even though everyone has their share of hard things in life, most people seem to have had it easier than I did. It seems like I have alot of isht to deal with , and I didnt quite mind in the beginning , but now it doesnt seem quite fair. Why is it that I am not taking very seriously? I'm either bad or wrong ot too young to know what I'm talking about. Why do I even bother talking at all? Everytime I think to say something, I almost feel like shutting my mouth again. Between friends, teachers, my girlfriend, my parents, I dont know what the hell to do. It's not all lemon drops and ice cream kids. Love is a hard thing to deal with. I love my girlfriend to death, but somethings we go through are very difficult. Like today , for the the I dont know what weekend, I woke up so we could go shopping. Once again she doesnt want to get up, and she doesnt think tomorrow is the day either. Well, I only want to help, and to make her happy, but I guess I can't even do that. I thought I was a good girlfriend, but maybe I'm just a little girl after all. Hell, what do I know about love. | | |
| Alright . I'm so madly in love, I'm absolutely smitten. I've totally left behind my problems, let go of old secrets, and i'm getting over the pain of depression and hating myself. I refuse to hurt anymore. Christian makes me feel like a someone, like I'm smart, I'm pretty, I'm worth something. I feel so wonderful. Who would have ever imagined for even two seconds that I would fall in love with a gay boy and he would fall in love with me. We make such a beautiful couple. After 19 days , we doubt we could be any happier. We wish this kind of love unto everyone. I think I am changed for life. Sabriel | | |
| Alright , so this is the news. I have a new friend. His name is Christian Miller. He's 21 years old, a senior , and the head of Psych . He is know as one of the gayest people on campus, but... he's my new boyfriend. I met him at the school's gay club. He was so adorable and cuddly. I feel so blessed to have met him. I don't care what other people think, but he is truly such a great guy. He makes me feel perfect and I can tell him anything. I have never in my life have ever felt like that with anyone before.. He also makes me feel beautiful, even though I truly am not. I love it how he knows what I'm thinking and how I feel before I tell him. I love it how he makes love to me and tells me that I'm wonderful and cuddles with me through the night. I don't deserve him, but I do love him for who he is, and I've told him as much. He loves me because I accept him and who he wants to be. I make him happy and he loves how I am. I just came back from 2 carnivals , and I won some things for my boyfriend and I . I miss him so much when he's at work. He works in this cute little candle shop, and yesterday I went to work with him. We kept sneaking into the corners to tell secrets and kiss and for him to just hold me. Now at the carnival, I won my baby a little frog and a fishie. I can't keep writing this entry. All the beautiful things he is says are taking my breath away. Good night Sabriel | | |
| Morning ladies and gents. Have you missed me? I missed being here and writing about things. So here are the latest stories. 1) I went off to university and I find it to be quite lovely. 2) I met aboy , who I like alot, who isnt super sexy or so fascinating or wicked cool or stuff like that. He's just real simple and real nice. Being around him makes me want to be a better person: to tell the truth, to not curse, to be strong, to be kinder, to be quiter. I am working on it now, and I feel like I have turned over a new leaf. I feel much better about myself and calmer. 3) The rumours dont bother me anymore at all. I figured them out. Lol. I think its really funny actually. These are the same old rumours from when I was in HSAS , and back then the story was told with the right characters. These rumours were about me and Aarondell , and they were very true, and I did admit to them . We did nearly have sex this summer but didnt. We did go to the library and start having sex, but then the library was closing and we had to leave. We did alot of stuff, and its funny how over time the stories change and multiply.... Rumours suck though, b/c it drives people mad and rips apart frien dships. Anyway, that part of my life is over and Im in a whole new place now, so its time to move on. Love to my darlings, Sabriel | | |
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